Bad Luckkk

On Sunday, Mommy and I went down to Oneonta to retrieve the last of my things from that wonderful town. We did it really fast so I didn't even have time to get upset about it. My new bed was being delivered Monday and they obviously couldn't give me a time of day when that would be occurring so I slept on the floor of my apartment Sunday night. I obviously didn't want to be lonely so I called for a reinforcement. Caity was more than happy to oblige and brought some party favors with her. We had an enjoyable time and somehow managed to drift right off to sleep despite the fact that we were on the cold floor. The next day Cait left and I waited for my bed to be delivered. It finally arrived and happens to be extremely comfortable.... juuuusssstttt so everyone knows in case they'd like to come visit to try it out.... After that, I was headed to Friendly's to get myself a job... I just can't seem to escape that restaurant. I headed to the back of my house where our parking is and opened to door of my dad's car that I was borrowing. It was then that I discovered that the passenger side window completely broken and the glove compartment was opened and its contents were on the floor of the car. Naturally, I called 911. The operator gave me the number to the Syracuse police reporting something-or-other where I was greeted by an answering machine, told to leave my number and the reason for my call, and they would call me back... which they did this morning. Aside from the fact that this it really sucks that my dads window is broken and need to be fixed AND only about a month ago, I had the side-view mirror of my car torn off I REALLY don't feel confident in the response of the Syracuse police. They could have at least sent someone over to humor me, considering I was pretty upset about the whole thing. Good thing our tax dollars go to such good use.

So now I'm obviously feeling great about the fact that my first night staying at the apartment that I will now be inhabiting alone my car gets broken into. Really comforted. Oy veyyy.

Aside from that, though, my apartment is still the coolest and I will just have to put on my brave face and make sure not to leave anything of value in my car. AND Alysa is coming today and we are going to Erin's for New Year. AND hopefully, Friendly's will still give me a job, even though I had to awkwardly cancel my meeting with the manager. AND my Christmas was spectacular. Lalalalaaa

I had my last exam Wednesday night. It was KILLER! I'm still feeling the relief of being done with it. Its like when you have to poo really bad and you finally do it and it just feels so good.... and every now and then you realize all over how relieved you feel. I went to the bars for Cait's birthday Wednesday night and ended up crying in the middle of the Oak. I was just so sad about being done and having to leave. After that, I went to my apartment and Rachel came to stay the night. We played an extremely fun game of photobooth for probably over an hour.... its fine. Mackey showed up halfway through too!!!



After that, Rachel made sure to set an alarm for early. In my drunkish state, it didn't occur to me to wonder why. Turns out, she was making sure to have time to help me pack up before she had to head back to the GF. Friends that great do not come around often. So after spending the next morning packing up a good portion of my possessions, we went and had a delicious breakfast at the Bagel Co. Rachel insisted that I will make friends in Syracuse. I insisted that I have already made friends with the coolest people that exist so no one in Syracuse can possibly measure up. Only time will tell, I suppose. After breakfast, Rach left. I didn't cry until she waked out the door because I told her I could get through it with no tears... hahaha.

After Rach left, I had to go meet with my research group to SPSS the results of our study with Dr. Gilbert. Dr. Gilbert happens to be the most long-winded man I have ever met. Soooo three hours later, when I finally got out of that meeting, it was 5:00. I made the rash decision to avoid Friday's storm and drive to Rochester Thursday night. I'm very glad I made that decision because I HATE driving in the snow. But unfortunately, I only got to say goodbye to a handful of people and had the most haphazard packing job ever. NO GOOD. Approximately ten minutes after I drove away, Edwin brought a goodbye party to my house. He called me and I almost crashed my car because I burst into tears about being on my way out of Oneonta AND having missed so many loved ones. (To be honest, I have yet to find out exactly who was there.)

ANYWAYYYY I made it to Alysas house and spent about another hour in her bed crying before falling asleep. No big deal. Being snowed in for a whole weekend has sent me right back to the wonderful land of denial....

Alysa and I spent the weekend doing a lot of nothing. It was fabulous. We went to see Milk on Saturday. I highly recommend it to anyone. Not only was the story fantastic but the acting was impeccable. Sean Penn is beyond fabulous and Emile Hirsch is the cutest little gay man ever!!

Instead of moving to my new apartment Sunday and getting settled in there overnight, the weather forced me to wait until today. I had my advisement meeting at 2:30. I got most of the way to Syracuse before the snow began to fall and everyone and there mother was off the road. Luckily, I drive more slowly than your grandmother in the snow, so I made it safe and sound and extremely tense. I met with my advisor who is extremely nice and then I went to my apartment. My mom, sister and grandpa met me there to help me move my things, thank goodness. It took about half an hour and then we were out of there, trying to get back to Rome before the storm got any worse. Oy vey! So basically, all my things got dropped in the place and we left. Hopefully it wont be too long before I get time to go make the place my own.... We will see.

Moral of the story is, I miss Oneonta....

...Comes from some other beginning's end

Today I have an exam. Its a little difficult but not unlike all the other exams I've had.... except that its my last one here. I'll be a college graduate with a bachelor's degree after this test. How bizarre.

I keep thinking back to when I first got here to Oneonta. If I had stayed at Geneseo, I would be overjoyed to finally be done and leaving forever. My how things have changed. To say that the girls of first west made an impact on me is the biggest understatement of this century. They took me right in and loved me no matter what..... welllllll pretty much. At that point, I couldn't have possibly imagined all the things I would do and accomplish here and all the people I would meet and love. I have more great friends than any girl could hope for.

Its just so funny for me to look back and remember what a scared, sad little girl I was when I walked through the doors of Golding hall that day to find my excessively enthusiastic RA lead me down the hall in her pajama pants and furry slippers and compare that to who I am today: confident and happy.


Thank you all for that.

aaannnnddddd END SCENE. No tears today.

Whoops

Sometimes I wake up by reading all of my friends' blogs. Sometimes that gives me much less time to do important things than I needed. WHoops!

Cue panic.

It's setting in. Just a project, two quizzes, and three exams away... Somebody find the pause button, PLEASE.

Rachel and Jenn love Documentaries!

Over break I read 1984.
I realize most people read that in their senior english class, but I was not given that opportunity and I'm glad. I never appreciated the books I read in high school because I was forced to read them. When you choose to read a book, you get so much more out of it. So anyway, I finally decided to read this book. When I finished, my first thought was WTF? I took the message to be that it doesn't matter how hard you try to resist, you're fucked in the end anyway. Ending the book with whats-his-name finally loving Big Brother did not please me. The more I've thought about it, though, the more I like it. Its so similar to out country right now... Constant warfare to keep the people in the workforce. An invisible ruling class headed by figure invented by this ruling class. Control of the media by this ruling class. Indoctrination of children to believe the nation is always right and looking out for the good of the people..... Its a little scary.

Last night Rachel and I watched Zeitgeist: Addendum. We watched Zeitgeist last year. I always try to take these docu's with a grain of salt because I know that they tend to stretch the truth in the direction of their own agenda. However, they explain the gist of our monetary system and say that our money is essentially imaginary. Every dollar we have is owed to somebody by somebody. Sounds about right. They also said that we have the technologies: solar, wind, tidal, wave, and geothermal, to NEVER have to burn fossil fuels again. Its all so fucked.

Anywhooo, Alysa's coming today for the weekend YAY!! I get to move into my new apartment on December 21st YAY!! I have about 15 days left in Oneonta BOO!! I'll be a college graduate very soon YAY!! I have one large project and one really hard exam to do during that time BOO!!

Greetings from Milne Library's third floor!

I am taking a break from being quite a little productive polly. The shenanigans of the past two weeks have left me with a rather epic workload. If you happen to be looking for me at any time during the next week and a half, your best bet is library- third floor. I'm getting a lot done a lot faster than I expected though. Its really incredible how much more work you get done when you actually sit down and do it then when you just think about it and ignore it.

Brit was fun last night. She looked like a real human being again and I hope for her sake that she gets her shit together. Plus, its just SO hard not to want to dance and have a good time when you hear womanizer, womanizer! There was a pretty silly discussion about whether or not Britney (and the rest of the celebrities for that matter) are human. No consensus was made in that department.

Josie left this morning. I hate to see her go but I LOVE to watch her walk away. Its sad but it wasn't so hard to say goodbye this time. Partially because I was running after a bus, and partially because she's returned after the great goodbye so I know she will return again before long. It will surely be a shame to have to wear my onesie all by myself though!!

Sunday is G*********. I'm not walking in the ceremony but it sure is symbolic for me. For some reason I'm not that sad though. I'm sure it will kick in when I leave but I'm getting very excited about Syracuse so that is making everything a lot easier. PLUS, since I'm renting the coolest apartment ever, I KNOW friends will be visiting all the time. AND I've already planned my first return visit to Oneonta. The first weekend back for Meg Cleary's post birthday celebration. I have a dress to wear so I have to come!

Break time is over, its back to work for me :(

Its Britney, Bitch!

Tonight Josie, Mackey, Meg Cleary and I are being the biggest girls of all time. We're watching MTV's Britney Spears special and eating chocolates. Its perfect!



I'll let you know how it goes :-D

joe and jebb return to oneonta

Tomorrow is the great car ride back to New York. I'm hoping to sleep through most of it since I drove most of the way down. Josie and I had a really good time acting like 11 year olds with Lauren. Relaxation, family, and shopping were the name of the game. I just got a big stomach ache thinking about all the things I have to do in the next three weeks. Its overwhelming but hopefully I will get it all done. Josie's visit and our trip to Virginia have been the relaxation period I've looked forward to that has kept me sane for these past weeks. Its a strange feeling knowing that you are a grown up and have to make sure everything happens and gets done right. Anything I want done has to be done by me and no one is there to fix things if I give up. YIKES! I hate growing up.

josie, virginia, and onesies

So Josie finally arrived. Its been an incredible week so far. We had tons of fun in Oneonta, including Bob Dylan and Alysa. Thursday night we had a party at my house and it was just the most fun ever. One of those nights you will remember forever, especially due to the extreme amount of pictures taken. After the party, we all went to the bar where Josie and I were THOSE GIRLS (as usual) and stood right in front of the band and danced danced danced. SO FUN!

We drove down to Virginia on Friday with Mama and Katelyn. I got lucky enough to drive from 9pm until we arrived at 4:30am. After that I immediately went to sleep... I'm not even sure how I kept myself awake for the ride. The next morning, mama asked why I didnt have her drive. My answer was: Because you were sleeping.... hahaha mama

Whilst in Virginia, Josie and I have done a lot of shopping. I got a polaroid camera (yay!) we bought matching onesies (see josies blog for pictures) We've also kept ourselves very entertained but just being ourselves. Last night we had a delightful reenactment of America's Next Top Model. As soon as Tyra sees our pics, you know she'll be calling us. All In all its been a delightful week and I've decided it shall not be ending. I hope no one minds a time pause for the rest of eternity! :-D

cant sit still

Josie will be here in 6 hours. This is crazy! A few weeks ago, this was just a silly idea that we were throwing around and now Josie's in America. Its funny how these things happen. Its gunna be the best two weeks ever :-D

I found a sweetsweetsweet apartment in Syracuse. Its about 4 blocks from campus the whole neighborhood is pretty much college folks. Its a one bedroom but it is large and in charge. Big living room, big kitchen, big bathroom, big bedroom. The best part is, there is a "storage room" that is big enough to use as another room. I'm probably gunna deck that shit out in tapestries and candles and call it my "chill room" eeeeeeekkk I'm excited now.

Also, my program doesn't offer grad assistantships but since my mom is getting her PhD from SU I can possibly get myself hooked up with an assistantship from her department. And then all my worries will be over. Not all my worries, really, but all my financial worries.

I cannot wait for thanksgiving. Josie is joining the family for that hullabaloo down in virginia. I love when my whole family is together! My brothers girlfriend is coming too. I'm really going to encourage the idea of marriage to these two. Not because I like marriage, but because I LOVE wedding receptions. We'll see how it goes.

There is so much funsies and excitement inside of me right now! I think I've been needing this after the weird and difficult month I've been having. yayayayayayyyyyy

So a mama tomato and a baby tomato...

I love Josie. She told me the tomato joke today which always makes me feel better.

Sooo Obama got elected, I got into grad school, Josie is coming here in one week, I already have someone to take over my lease, I almost have a new apartment lined up, Thanksgiving is coming soon, my sideview mirror got run into and died in the middle of the night, Prop 8 got passed, the semester's almost over, i had to make a sad decision....

Those are my highs, lows, and thank you's. You decide what's what.

Syracuse and shit

Sooooo I had my interview and I think I performed pretty well. It was way less stressful than I had imagined and a few of the questions were straight out of an RA interview. At that point, I knew I had it nailed. I even made a couple G-rated jokes to get the crowd involved. Now its just a waiting game but I feel content because I did all I could and whichever way it goes is fate. Thats pretty much my take on life. As long as you put in the effort, whatever is supposed to happen happens. Baddda Bing.

I found a potential apartment too. A girl is graduating early and has to sublet her room in a two bedroom apartment. The apartment is literally 1 block from the building that houses my potential department and I think about 3 blocks from the library. I couldn't even dream of a better location. Its pretty much like living on campus but with NO campus rules! The ad says the roomate is easy to live with so hopefully shes not lying. I messaged her and she said she would send me pictures of the apartment in the next few days. The message came across as very friendly and enthusiastic so i definitely feel at ease about it so far. Things really seem to be starting to fall into place. Ever since getting past the hurdle of getting this stupid application done, everything has just been really easy so I'm starting to feel like this is the right thing for me to do after all. Like its not just this half-assed scheme I came up with, it really could just work right out. I still hate waiting to know for sure though!!

Countdown: 2 weeks until Josie and I couldn't be more excited!!!! ahhhhhhhhghhghghhhh!!!! <3

"... and next week we'll talk about mountain porn."

Direct quote from Dr. Koch, a.k.a. the man.

Rachel slumbered in my abode last night. She helped me pick out an outfit for my interview on friday. Its was just like an old fashioned slumber party complete with dress up!


This is the outfit that Rach and Mack approved.



Instead of watching me take off my clothes, Rach got artistic with her eyeball.



...and played peek-a-boo with her grape juice.



Also, I'm a high fashion super model. No big deal.



I'm pretty excited for this whole process to be over with. Its too much stress for me.

After the fashion show, the three of us watched the documentary Darfur Now. It was pretty depressing. We totally exploited Africa taking their resources, especially their forests, leaving much of the continent in drought and desert. The lack of resources has led to absolutely heinous acts of violence and what do we do to help those people? Nothing. We're "bringing peace and democracy" to Iraq to "better their lives" and ignoring the atrocities that we helped to create in Darfur.... its not their fault they don't supply us with oil. Guuhhhhh-ROSSS.

PS 18 days to JOSIE!!!

Perfect.

I'm stealing this from the superforest blog. I don't care. Watch.

2000



2008

A jumble of thoughts

Hello world,
Josefin Fundin is coming to America. I couldn't be more pleased. I think she is coming at just the right time too. I am so excited and looking forward to seeing her that I can't even think about the end of the semester anymore. Josie = peace of mind :).

I have an interview at SU on Friday. I'm currently trying to come up with questions to ask because every interview inevitably ends with "so, do you have any questions for us?" and my inevitable answer is "uhhh wellllllll I can't think of any right now." Word on the street is, that response is frowned upon. So I am just going to blatantly walk in that place with a list of questions right in my hand. Who's prepared? I'm prepared. I'm also resting on the idea that actually going to the school and meeting and interacting with the faculty and seeing the counseling clinic, etc. will make me feel confident in a grad school related decision, one way or the other. I'm pretty much assuming that I'll get there and just become really excited about learning and becoming involved. But on the flip side, I could get there and be like what the heeeezyyy was I thinking?! Either way is fine by me!

After the interview, I'm obviously driving back to Oneonta for Halloween. I don't have a costume. I think I'll go as a college student. Creative, I know.

I haven't gotten my absentee ballot. I filled out the application weeks and weeks ago in the quad and they were supposed to send them all out. Mine still had not arrived. I'm fairly certain its too late and I'm pretty pissed about not being able to vote. Considering that New York has voted Democrat since the dawn of time, I'm not concerned about the outcome of the election based upon my vote. I still wanted to do it though. Bureaucracy sucks!

Also, I've been doing tons of reading about the environment because of my environmental ethics class. I was thinking about it last night and trying to figure out why people just do not care. I mean everyone talks about how we need to save the environment and fight global warming and everything else but how many people actually do anything about it. I mean, I try to do my part to lower my carbon footprint but I like to have a warm house and sometimes its easier to drive to rite aid instead of walking. I always try to remember to bring my reusable mug to campus, but sometimes I run out the door without it, and its not like I can go a day without coffee. I feel like such a hypocrite because I am actively pursuing knowledge about where the environment is headed and how fast its going there but I still don't do much to fix things. I think we're just all so incredibly desensitized to tragedy of any kind. From the violence in the news and on tv to movies about every single type of natural disaster possible, we just can't bring ourselves to take reality seriously. Its like its all this talk about how disastrous things will get if we continue on this path environmentally is just the beginning of a movie plot. And never fear because at the end of our 2 hour cinematic masterpiece, everything will be on the road to recovery. Unfortunately, real life doesn't happen to be so simple...

Powell, and Limbaugh, and Keybank, and Deferment (oh my!)

Colin Powell is backing Barach Obama for president. Yay Powell for standing up to your party and publicly supporting Obama. I think that says a LOT, not only about Obams but also about the Republican party. They're so fucked that even their most public and high ranking party members are turning their backs. Rush Limbaugh says Powell is backing Obama because both men are black. First of all, Rush Limbaugh is an ass clown with a narcotics problem who hates everyone who isn't a fat white man like himself. Second, and more importantly, considering his knowledge of government, I find it hard to believe that Powell would back an unqualified candidate based on his skin color.

In other news, the ass clownery continues: keybank sucks at life. After three months and multiple phone calls, keybank finally told me that the reason i haven't gotten my refund check is that my mom never signed the promissory note. Funny story there, my mom also talked to keybank months ago, asking them to send a paper copy because the online system wouldn't work. When I explained calmly to them the flaws of their customer service and made suggestions for the future, I was blatantly ignored and hung up with as quickly as possible. Whatever happened to "the customer is always right??" Moral of the story: don't use keybank.

On a lighter note, today I recalled a joyful work: deferment - the act of delaying or postponing. Put into context, it means (assuming I am accepted) I could stay in Oneonta next semester, earn some money, enjoy the entirety of senior year, and then go to grad school! This lightbulb came on this morning and most likely lowered my blood pressure to a normal human range. yeeehaawwww.

to walk or not to walk

While walking from my car to my front door after work this evening, i took a moment to sit on my stoop and enjoy the smell of the cold fall evening (one of those strange smells that you enjoy despite the fact that you can only handle about 5 minutes of it before you freeze to death) and I realized how late in the year it is becoming. Halloween is quickly approaching. After Halloween comes November. Something I have to do in the early november (haha) is register for G*********. Then complete paralyzing panic took hold of me, causing me to loose my breath and my stomach to constrict into the uncomfortable realization that in less than two months, my undergraduate career will be over. I'm fine with the idea of classes being done. I'm handling well being patient to find out what the future holds. I CANNOT decide, however, whether I want to walk in December or May. I realize its just a simple ceremony, recognizing your achievements and yadda yadda. You g******* whether or not you walk, and when you choose to do it makes no difference, whatsoever. For me, this decision is huge. This decision will dictate to what extent I am moving on from this school. If I wait until May, I will indubitably be around for senior festivities at the end of the year because I'll be partaking in them. But I fear that I'll feel out of place and extra sad. If I go ahead and do it in December, all my friends can come and celebrations will be many and merry, but It will symbolically sever my tie to the rest of my senior year and make May a sad, awkward time for me. What to do, what to do? Any ideas?



PS: perhaps we all should have stayed freshmen....?

debbie downer

So I've been too lazy to write a blog for a while but here is what ive done the past few days:
Protest for gay rights, grant 312 reunion at the OST, freezing in my apartment because I refuse to turn on the heat, field trip to the field station followed by intelligent conversation on the bus ride home, wondering about SU, rocking out to oops i did it again complete with hairbrush microphone in cait's room, QT with hackford.

Now I'm finally watching mommy dearest the whole way through for the first time. I'll probably go throw away all my wire hangers when its over. Hopefully this week I'll be less of a Debbie Downer and have more exciting things to blog about!

PS: Thanks for the email, noonan!

Midterm Schmidterm

I'm having a problem. I cannot seem to convince myself that work is necessary anymore. I'm currently having some quality time with the third floor of the library where, if all else fails, I ALWAYS manage to get work/studying done. Apparently, that is no longer the case. I just considered taking a lap around the floor and realized that I am really in a bind. Also, I believe that facebook should have a feature where you tell it what hours you need to be doing work and it WILL NOT allow you to sign on during those hours.... just an idea. My problem really seems to be a case of the senioritis. All I really want right now is for Syracuse to give me a yay or nay so I can figure out my life. I have about 12 different and equally vague plans for what to do if I'm not accepted so all I have to do is choose one and then I can daydream away about how it will all work out. Somehow, writing a paper on inherent value and one one monism vs. pluralism just isn't as important to my brain.... Its funny how I spend years being NUTS about my work and getting everything done and yadda yadda and now I just couldn't really care less. I think I'm gunna go take that lap now....

I've never seen two girls... walk by an ice cream shop.

This weekend I visited Alysa. We were walking to get some lunch near her new house and an awkward man looks at us and says "I've never seen two girls....... walk past an ice cream shop before" We're still trying to figure out what he really wanted to say. Either way, it was good for more than a few laughs.

CNN just told me that they're thinking about making a gay high school in Chicago. It wouldn't be called a gay high school, obviously but it would be an option for kids who are harassed and bullied to the point where they don't feel safe in high school for their sexual orientation, or any other reasons. They talked about the statistics that gay students are more likely to miss classes and have lower GPAs. Also, apparently 39 states including NY don't have laws in place that protect students from harassment based on their sexual orientation (WHAT?!).

I have mixed feelings about this idea. On the one hand, high school kids can be about as ruthless as they come and if you don't feel safe or comfortable in school, you're not going to be in your prime to learn and succeed. But, at the same time, people need to learn to deal with not being liked or understood. Its not like high school is the only place where these students are going to be harassed or discriminated against so putting them in a special school in their own little world that shields them from mean people will only postpone the inevitable. Also, this sends the message to the students left in the regular school that you don't need to learn to be tolerant of people who are different, you can just ship them off to somewhere where you don't need to see them or think about them.

I personally think that instead of creating a new school, they should educate everyone on being tolerant and make them aware of gay issues. In my high school, there was never any discussion of that nature. But of course, talking in high school about actual issues won't be happening any time soon because parents don't want their kids subjected to anything that might actually make them decent, well informed human beings....

Playboy's Hugh Hefner, girlfriend call it quits.

I've just been perusing CNN.com as I do everyday in an attempt to stay informed. I was reading about the continuing drop in the stock market and some tidbits about the presidential nominees. Then I looked at the popular news section, where it shows the top ten most read articles of the day and number one was "Playboy's Hugh Hefner, girlfriend call it quits". Thats right, the most read story on CNN today is about Hefner's breakup with a girlfriend. The man has had more girlfriends than anyone else on the planet, which obviously leads to the most breakups of all time. Add that to the fact that we currently have some incredibly important issues occurring in this country as we speak, and explain to me WHY people care about Hugh Hefner's breakup??

It's no wonder this country is so screwed up. We idolize a man who has made plastic women and complete extravagance the meaning of his life, and many of us don't even bother to vote for the next person to run our country. We watch Britney Spears' mother on TV talk about whether she regrets letting her daughter pose in her bra on the cover of Rolling Stone at age 17 instead of helping our own children with their homework. People should probably start caring more about their own lives right in front of them than the lives of bored, rich celebrities who have nothing better to do with their lives than create shenanigans that will get them on the "news".

Annndddd I'm done.

Rome (NY)

Today I am at home. I was not nearly as freezing waking up today as I was yesterday. My parents are NOT too cheap to turn on the heat which I am really enjoying. I'm sitting on my couch, next to my baby Duncan. My parents are at work and it is SO quiet. I don't think I've ever heard this place so quiet. Duncan slept in my bed with me last night. Apparently, he was VERY excited to have me home. He started out on the edge of the bed and in the middle of the night he got up and snuggled himself right up next to my face. I put my arm next to him and he put his chin on my hand and went back to sleep. It was love, I'm sure. I think today I'm going to read the diving bell and the butterfly (FINALLY) and make dinner for my mom. She hates cooking and made me dinner for years so I figure now that I know my way around a kitchen, I'll make dinner for her. Maybe some oatmeal raisin cookies too.... those are her favorite!!

I've been in this phase lately (that I believe may be permanent) where I just want to know everything about everything. Different philosophies and political movements, the economy, wars, mythology, historical figures.... the list goes on. Every time I learn a bit about something, I discover twelve other things I want to know about. Its getting overwhelming, but I like it. I've learned about existentialism a few times in different classes but its always been really difficult for me to wrap my head around. I was reading about it online yesterday and the worlds always just become sort of jumbles to me. Then I remembered the movie I <3 Huckabees. I've tried to watch it a few times before but never made my way to the end. So last night was the night. I watched the whole thing and loved it. It gave me a much better grasp on the whole concept of existentialism and was entertaining at the same time. Sooooo one interesting topic down, 78trillion to go!

C-c-c-cold!!

My room is freezing. It makes me never want to leave my cocoon bed! I foresee this becoming more and more of a problem as the months go on.... Although, eventually we are just going to have to man (or woman) up and start paying heating bills.... I'm just not ready quite yet!!

I'm becoming very antsy about hearing from SU. Obviously, I'm not getting a letter for several more weeks but an: Oh, hii We've gotten all the necessary parts of your application and we're leisurely reading and thinking about them.... would be nice!

I'm going home today since I have no classes tomorrow. It will be my first time ever at my parent's house with no siblings living at home. I feel like its gonna be a kind of NatGeo sort of thing: Ohhhh look, this is what the adults of the species do in their natural habitat when left aloneee. In reality, the only difference will be that my sister won't be holed up in her room and I won't have the occasional wait for the bathroom. In my mind its still a big deal though!!

PS: Debate tonight- another exhilarating round of idiocy in action!!

Lunchies

Soooooo Mackey and I planned a lovely lunch date for today. We were going to go up to table rock and have a picnic and look at the fall colors and frankly, it was going to be lovely. BUT I got ditched. So I went to the Latte Lounge all by myself like a big girl and found Sierra there. We sat and chatted and it was nice. She asked me how the semester was going and I told her it was weird because I'm getting ready to graduate and everything. She asked me if I was ready for all that and I said no. But then I thought about it and I'm thinking maybe I am. I'm not ready to leave my friends, but I'll never be ready to leave my friends. I've done a lot of growing and learning in this little town and I think I've just about grown out of it. I think that once you've gotten what you needed from a place, its time to go. And I have gotten so much from Oneonta. This moment of clarity will by no means imply that I won't be freaking out like crazy as the semester goes on but its nice to appreciate the moments when I really feel like I'm doing the right thing.

Sierra also told me about a book called BitchFest which is just a collection of feminist articles from Bitch magazine. I'm ordering it and I'll give it a read.

Friendlys

Work was pretty humorous today. A guy left me his number on a receipt.... because that is obviously the most successful/classy way to pick up a laaaaaaady. Another man told me a joke: whats the difference between a garbage bag and a brunette?? A garbage bag gets taken out at least once a week. Hahaha FINALLY a joke that is not making fun of blondes!! Despite the fact that I got a few laughs, friendlys still sucks. Thats all, folks!

Its Sunday. I miss Sundays when all I did was lie around, drink coffee, and maybe do a bit of homework. Now Sundays mean spending far too many hours at Friendlys. No fun! In the mean time before work, I'm working on my environmental ethics midterm. 3 essays and 5 short answers. Also no fun! Buutttt its one of the few difficult assignments I've had in my three-plus college years so far, so I guess I can't complain too much. Also, I have to go to the small. I just don't have enough long sleeve shirts and I can already tell that this will be a problem in the coming months. Hopefully I can find something at the small.

Last night the Barefoot Janitors recorded. I gave up at 2am and they were still going strong. I got some fun studio pics though!!

Morning

Today I woke up to the sun coming through my window. Apparently, its one of those very rare fall days where the sun actually comes out to play. Awesome!

Last night I nighthosted. That turned out to be much more excitement than anyone expected. Those freshmen sure are silly! I can't honestly say that we weren't dumb as freshmen. Sometimes I wish I could go back to that a little. All we worried about was passing out classes and having a good time. Now its all about grad school and jobs and projects and bills. Its incredible how much responsibility three short years can add on to your life. Josie got up at 9am her time to skype before I finished nighthosting. She is NUTS with the waking up to skype and I love it. Even Kevin stayed up till 4 to hang out with me :) I love my friends!

TONIGHT the barefoot Janitors are recording! Yayyyy!!! I'm going to watch and take pictures and be in the Behind the Music video that Rach is making. I'm very excited about it!

Alysa got me started watching My So-Called Life. Its fabulously 90s and really makes me wish the grunge look would come back so no one would pretend to care how they look anymore..... just an idea!!

Yayy Blog

Josie has made me a fabulous blog. I have NO patience for designing things and that is why Jos rocks my world.

Today was a very lame day. Last night Meg Cleary and I split a (BIG) bottle of wine over the vice presidential debate and then went to the bar. It was a fabulous night that led to an UNfabulous day. I felt like complete shit until 7:00 tonight. Gross. It appears I will survive.

Yesterday I gave myself a project. It was the "take fall in oneonta pictures for Josie" project. So here they are.





Rachel told me I looked like a soccer mom. Dave looked like a soccer dad. We took a soccer parents picture.














































The trees are changing!!





















AND Mills sush!!

Josefin Fundin

(I love Josie for making me this blog :):):):):))