to walk or not to walk

While walking from my car to my front door after work this evening, i took a moment to sit on my stoop and enjoy the smell of the cold fall evening (one of those strange smells that you enjoy despite the fact that you can only handle about 5 minutes of it before you freeze to death) and I realized how late in the year it is becoming. Halloween is quickly approaching. After Halloween comes November. Something I have to do in the early november (haha) is register for G*********. Then complete paralyzing panic took hold of me, causing me to loose my breath and my stomach to constrict into the uncomfortable realization that in less than two months, my undergraduate career will be over. I'm fine with the idea of classes being done. I'm handling well being patient to find out what the future holds. I CANNOT decide, however, whether I want to walk in December or May. I realize its just a simple ceremony, recognizing your achievements and yadda yadda. You g******* whether or not you walk, and when you choose to do it makes no difference, whatsoever. For me, this decision is huge. This decision will dictate to what extent I am moving on from this school. If I wait until May, I will indubitably be around for senior festivities at the end of the year because I'll be partaking in them. But I fear that I'll feel out of place and extra sad. If I go ahead and do it in December, all my friends can come and celebrations will be many and merry, but It will symbolically sever my tie to the rest of my senior year and make May a sad, awkward time for me. What to do, what to do? Any ideas?



PS: perhaps we all should have stayed freshmen....?